kalalanekent: (Across the Universe :: Krypton II)
This is yet another of those week's leading up to a vacation that's draaaaaaaaaaaaaaagging. I think part of it was this with Vix last week [still hurts; we got her ashes back yesterday in a beautiful wooden box. God bless our vet] and the fact that we have an Operations walk this week. There's been no time to slow down and relax at all. Only getting about three or four hours of sleep a night.

As Lo Vaction-Babbles... )
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Smoking)
Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that
Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know
But nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me
You never shut-up
Yeah I can hear that

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These Years

So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thougts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best praya that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you
My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven
Where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough
To get us there

Cause what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These...

Years go by
Will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand
Years go by
If I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds
Raining in head
Years go by
Will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left
One more casualty
You know we're too easy Easy Easy

Well I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
But baby don't look up
The sky is falling
Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
It's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you here
Take hold of my hand
Yeah I can hear them

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice [x3]

And it's been here
Silent All These Years
I've been here
Silent All These Years
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Freefall Save Me)
I promise to actually post real life stuff when real life is actually less stressy and angsty. Because right now, it's Stress-and-Angst Central. Seriously, you don't wanna hear that. I promise you. Hell, I don't even wanna hear that. *makes face*

That said, I loooove you all and thank you for the fact that you keep reading. The end of October will bring me and Anissa to the mountains and hopefully a little respite before I get body-slammed into the Christmas season. Which I don't even want to consider after how insane SUMMER was, which never happens.

*tacklesnuggles*

GAH!

Apr. 12th, 2012 01:46 pm
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Smoking)
Really REALLY glad that I'm going on vacation next week FINALLY. Like a REAL vacation. Because this job is going to be the death of me.

I'm sorry I haven't been posting more than just the chapters and random stuff, guys, but I really don't want to be whiny about not feeling too great or complaining about my job.

Lo-Land is all about being like Wonderland the last few months: beautiful if you view it one way, dangerous and dark if you make a wrong turn. Feels like Jabberwock Central lately.
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Horror)
How has this week been?

Let's ask a far-future member of the LS crew.





[Yep, someone's been watching Lost Girl and someone has plaaaaaans.]

ETA: Nevermind. Work is out for the night. Couldn't tell them the real reason for the call-out, but they wouldn't understand. Panic attacks suck and I'm never 100% right afterwards. Takes several hours for me to get right again and I can't do that at Customer Service. Also, didn't post this for sympathy. People should know that this is a thing that happens and it's real and it's horrible and you really have no control over it. It's especially bad when you work in the service industry. This isn't just a 'suck it up and deal' kinda thing. There's really not much that can control mine and even meds don't always keep it at bay. Just some food for thought.

Dear Life,

Mar. 9th, 2012 02:11 pm
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Badass)
Can we please stop all of this 'going-around-in-circles' stuff? After about the fifteenth time I'm faced with the same situation, I will get frustrated and I will want to scream and throw something at it. Will this solve the problem? Likely, because whoever it is will get with the program or not come back.

Also, could we please do something about the teams of 'angry-at-the-world' people and the 'so-apathetic-you-could-run-them-over-with-a-car-and-they-wouldn't-notice' people that keep showing up lately? Because I LOATHE the feeling of living in a Rage comic everyday. Worse, I'm feeling myself getting just like them double-time.

And I'm sick of boring my readers with these crabby ranting posts.

Something's got to give and I'm not willing to part with any more of my sanity than I already have, thank you very much.

I'll send Lois and her Ladysmith first.

No love,
Me
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Smoking)
You have several things going on this week [delivery-wise, fic-wise, commission-wise, work-wise] and all you can do is bounce impatiently on your heels and try not to whine?

Yeah, I know, I know. This isn't actually a problem.

I just don't know what to do with myself so I don't just keep hitting the refresh button, both literally and figuratively.

This is the only time I can think of where going to work is a good solution.

GAH!

*headdesk*

And [livejournal.com profile] saavikam77, if you see this before I get in, welcome home!
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Caught)
Just a week ago I was at my wits' end. I finally felt like I was going to forever crash and burn. And I may again later, likely. I work retail and have been there five and a half years now. It's almost a given.

But on a cool, overcast morning like this, robins all over my yard, a song stuck in my head, the Muse wide-awake and whispering, and a good start on a fic that's been avoiding us for a while plus a head-start on the next LaOH chapter, the world seems very, very different. 

There are still plans to escape to Savannah on Thursday for a two-day stay, since we can't get to Asheville right now, and I hope they pan out, but as long as I can escape to my fic the way I've been able to, all is right with the world.

I think I'm finally, FINALLY, starting to feel like myself again for the first time in months. 

It's the most beautiful feeling in the world.
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Caught)
Just a week ago I was at my wits' end. I finally felt like I was going to forever crash and burn. And I may again later, likely. I work retail and have been there five and a half years now. It's almost a given.

But on a cool, overcast morning like this, robins all over my yard, a song stuck in my head, the Muse wide-awake and whispering, and a good start on a fic that's been avoiding us for a while plus a head-start on the next LaOH chapter, the world seems very, very different. 

There are still plans to escape to Savannah on Thursday for a two-day stay, since we can't get to Asheville right now, and I hope they pan out, but as long as I can escape to my fic the way I've been able to, all is right with the world.

I think I'm finally, FINALLY, starting to feel like myself again for the first time in months. 

It's the most beautiful feeling in the world.
kalalanekent: (Fandom :: The Voices In My Head)
One and a half original fics written for the PB [which I might just finish out today while Anissa's at work]. Two others that need to be finished from the last one with choice prompts. Good coffee and downloading a ton of Meatloaf I don't already own and listening to the Into the Shadows mix on repeat.

So far, it's been a good morning.

The first in a while.

:D
kalalanekent: (Fandom :: The Voices In My Head)
One and a half original fics written for the PB [which I might just finish out today while Anissa's at work]. Two others that need to be finished from the last one with choice prompts. Good coffee and downloading a ton of Meatloaf I don't already own and listening to the Into the Shadows mix on repeat.

So far, it's been a good morning.

The first in a while.

:D
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Caught)
So. This week. Not been a good one. Not gonna lie.

We're going to end up blowing another deadline. And then I have to make it worse by having to take a week off.

Yeah.

A week.

Anissa and I have discussed it and we're going to hold ATU [which is, again, half-finished because of RL eating up our time] until the following weekend. We're going to be posting in the Porn Battle so we have a chance to reset everything in our heads to their proper positions. It also gives us a week to do some epic planning and such for the things coming up [and there are HUGE things coming up. Things that we're actually scared of handling wrong, hence some of all of the delays on these two main fics lately, OTHER than RL] because we NEED it. We also usually take time off during the PB's for just this reason. Gives up a chance to really open up our creativity full-throttle and consider things that we normally don't as much. Gives you a chance to see some pairings and such with fresh eyes.

Just bear with us a little longer. This is one of the many reasons RL makes me nuts. It interferes with my writing and that I WILL NOT STAND FOR! *epic!Lane Death Glare*

There are some fics that I'll be hiding on another journal until they can be released officially, so avoid spoilers by not reading some of our PB fic until I post them here. My co-author on a certain future project made some requests and we're going to fill the ones we can. Just be warned that there are spoilers, however AU they may be and no matter how little of the actual canon is there. Just be forewarned. ;)

But again, I'm so sorry for the delay and the fact that I've completely blown my rep as Queen of Deadlines.

Also, I will post a link to the PB once it goes live so those who will can join in the fun. As it is, the prompts deadline has closed. As soon as they get the prompts post filtered and polished, I'll post that as well. Who knows? Someone may have already put in some you'd like to see.

Be warned, though, that my younger readers know they have no business over there and I don't approve if you sneak. *wags finger*
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Caught)
So. This week. Not been a good one. Not gonna lie.

We're going to end up blowing another deadline. And then I have to make it worse by having to take a week off.

Yeah.

A week.

Anissa and I have discussed it and we're going to hold ATU [which is, again, half-finished because of RL eating up our time] until the following weekend. We're going to be posting in the Porn Battle so we have a chance to reset everything in our heads to their proper positions. It also gives us a week to do some epic planning and such for the things coming up [and there are HUGE things coming up. Things that we're actually scared of handling wrong, hence some of all of the delays on these two main fics lately, OTHER than RL] because we NEED it. We also usually take time off during the PB's for just this reason. Gives up a chance to really open up our creativity full-throttle and consider things that we normally don't as much. Gives you a chance to see some pairings and such with fresh eyes.

Just bear with us a little longer. This is one of the many reasons RL makes me nuts. It interferes with my writing and that I WILL NOT STAND FOR! *epic!Lane Death Glare*

There are some fics that I'll be hiding on another journal until they can be released officially, so avoid spoilers by not reading some of our PB fic until I post them here. My co-author on a certain future project made some requests and we're going to fill the ones we can. Just be warned that there are spoilers, however AU they may be and no matter how little of the actual canon is there. Just be forewarned. ;)

But again, I'm so sorry for the delay and the fact that I've completely blown my rep as Queen of Deadlines.

Also, I will post a link to the PB once it goes live so those who will can join in the fun. As it is, the prompts deadline has closed. As soon as they get the prompts post filtered and polished, I'll post that as well. Who knows? Someone may have already put in some you'd like to see.

Be warned, though, that my younger readers know they have no business over there and I don't approve if you sneak. *wags finger*
kalalanekent: (Fandom :: Lois Lane At Heart)
When she's still awake at 7:30 in the morning and ficcing for the Porn Battle before it's even opened officially.

Incredibly frustrating days all this week adds up to disappearing into a whole 'nother world for a while.

Fanfic Writing: It's My Anti-Drug.
kalalanekent: (Fandom :: Lois Lane At Heart)
When she's still awake at 7:30 in the morning and ficcing for the Porn Battle before it's even opened officially.

Incredibly frustrating days all this week adds up to disappearing into a whole 'nother world for a while.

Fanfic Writing: It's My Anti-Drug.
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Asleep)
Just a quick little update to say that we're still moving forward with the FIL's recovery, I'm trying to get back into Harmon and get everything put back in working order for Brian [a bigger job than either he or I expected], and desperately trying to work through my stress and stuff with writing. Lots of writing. I'm hoping that everything in my life and in everyone's close to me will even out. I miss being on here all the time, I miss having tons of content for all of you.

It's just a rough patch. We'll keep marching on...

Just occasionally remind me that you still love me? 'Cause I still need it sometimes. I just feel so helpless and useless to everyone lately. I need to remember that I can't just wave a magic wand and fix everything.
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Asleep)
Just a quick little update to say that we're still moving forward with the FIL's recovery, I'm trying to get back into Harmon and get everything put back in working order for Brian [a bigger job than either he or I expected], and desperately trying to work through my stress and stuff with writing. Lots of writing. I'm hoping that everything in my life and in everyone's close to me will even out. I miss being on here all the time, I miss having tons of content for all of you.

It's just a rough patch. We'll keep marching on...

Just occasionally remind me that you still love me? 'Cause I still need it sometimes. I just feel so helpless and useless to everyone lately. I need to remember that I can't just wave a magic wand and fix everything.
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Asleep)
Annnnd I'm about to do something completely unprecedented. Something I REALLY didn't want to do.

For the last week, I've been fighting what feels like a strain of the flu and it's pretty much kept me out of work and offline. Miserable from head to toe and just barely feeling like I'm existing. Well, I'm just now back at work and trying to get back to a normal routine, nevermind that I've been going to bed early and sleeping really late. If I'm lucky, I'll be back to 100% by the weekend.

However, Anissa started falling prey to it this evening. And it's hitting her hard, where most colds and viruses don't really stick to her.

The bad part? We've only gotten a little bit of ATU underway because she's been having to look after me this week and I've been no help whatsoever. We know where it's going and what needs to be done for it, but there's no way that we're going to catch up in time. NONE. So, we're forced to hold off for a second week in a row.

No one worry. This isn't any kind of sign that we're stopping anything for good, just that we've both been in a really bad way and need the chance to rest and recoop before we dive back in. I don't expect that we'll miss another deadline and we plan to try to have the first chapter of Love and Other Headaches to you,then, as well, but it will most certainly be out by the end of the month.

As always, we love you all and thanks for understanding! We'll be back just as soon as we can!
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Asleep)
Annnnd I'm about to do something completely unprecedented. Something I REALLY didn't want to do.

For the last week, I've been fighting what feels like a strain of the flu and it's pretty much kept me out of work and offline. Miserable from head to toe and just barely feeling like I'm existing. Well, I'm just now back at work and trying to get back to a normal routine, nevermind that I've been going to bed early and sleeping really late. If I'm lucky, I'll be back to 100% by the weekend.

However, Anissa started falling prey to it this evening. And it's hitting her hard, where most colds and viruses don't really stick to her.

The bad part? We've only gotten a little bit of ATU underway because she's been having to look after me this week and I've been no help whatsoever. We know where it's going and what needs to be done for it, but there's no way that we're going to catch up in time. NONE. So, we're forced to hold off for a second week in a row.

No one worry. This isn't any kind of sign that we're stopping anything for good, just that we've both been in a really bad way and need the chance to rest and recoop before we dive back in. I don't expect that we'll miss another deadline and we plan to try to have the first chapter of Love and Other Headaches to you,then, as well, but it will most certainly be out by the end of the month.

As always, we love you all and thanks for understanding! We'll be back just as soon as we can!
kalalanekent: (Lois :: Smoking)
I don't know what the hell I ate or what, but I do NOT like the crushing downer that was yesterday. In fact, I call do-over on almost the whole damn thing. Was kinda like being at the base of a tornado looking up, feeling that small looking up that tube and knowing something is going to come down eventually and flatten you. NOT GOOD AND DO NOT WANT.

Thank God, vacation's next week and I can actually relax. I so have not been good fun recently. This is a thing that should not happen. *pouts*

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