~There's A Place That I Know :: It's Not Pretty There and Few Have Ever Gone...~

More specifically, why isn't mine?

*makes face, forces self out the door*

A little better today after the emotion-vomit that was yesterday. I'm sorry I just spazzed like that; it's been one hell of a month so far and I guess I had to get it out of my system. Gah. I'm more than a little embarrassed about it, but hey. It's my LJ. I can say what I want, right? I'm just sorry you have to deal with it. *makes face*

Started a video of Margot that a fan requested a little while back. I like it so far, but I really need to get a few more of her films on the comp to really make it extraordinary. Currently trying to track down torrents for Sisters and Quackser. Let's see how that goes.

Noms list is more than halfway done. I'll likely have mine in by the end of the week. Finding a few gems out there that I never knew about. :D

Now off to the House of Happiness. I'm actually glad I only work a few days this week. The sooner vacation gets here, the better.

Ever had a morning when you get up and nothing you do seems right, nothing you've written in the last year looks right, it's too damn hot, you want to cry, and you feel like you're totally boring and you don't know why your friends bother with you when all of write in your LJ is gloom and doom? And you don't even do that well, not to mention your fic writing? 

Only useful thing I'm doing today is noms, some of which make me nervous.

Blech. I need to defriend myself.

Also, due to the fact that this last chapter had issues now that I look bck on it, Anissa and I are talking about taking a week's break to get The Pond finished, our 12days_of_clois  fic finished, and get some serious plotting worked out. I'm scared to death that the end of Heirs isn't going to be up to par and that's the last thing I want. After the way that LS ended, I really don't want to see this boring the hell out of you guys.

I think June is getting to me. I've never been so glad that vacation is soon. *lets out slow sigh of relief*

Sorry I have a case of the whiny bitch lately. :(

First, apologies to all of you. I've been really psycho moody this week. There's a lot of factors going on here. I'm just annoyed that it filtered over into a whiny bitch post. Blech. All of the crazy at work is almost at an end, at least from the big-bosses-going-home stance. Our SM is also going on vacation in a couple of days. Here's hoping that we can have a decent week while he's fishing, most likely.

The good news? The chapter going pretty steadily and is going to be huge. SO much going on. We're at 5,500 words and still have a good deal to add. I'll be so glad to get it out. Still shocked to be at this point, even after all this time. To know we're drawing down toward the end really amazes me. There's likely a dozen more chapters to go, but it's very close for me. That may also be adding to the weepy moodiness. So many things about to happen.

I'm heading to bed soon and promise to wake up a little more sane. God knows I need it. Both the sleep and the sanity. ;)

Good night, darlings!

 Lois is all about some over-tired basketcase. This is another of those want-to-run-away-and-hide-in-any-place-but-here weeks. The mountains seem so far away on days like this. Just want to get away from this life at times like this. I wanted all of this to be written on a week when I could just sit back and let the emotions fall where they may. Not happening. I just feel wrung out. I think the work will still be good, but I don't know if it'll be up to my standards.

Then again, that could just be the lack of rest and PMS talking.

Just...blech.

See, rizny , I really do need you to keep me from driving myself nuts sometimes. Love you, bb. *blows kiss*

*wants to curl into a little ball and go back to sleep*

*knows she can't and that she has work and writing to do*

*stretches and whines*

Sorry I'm behind on responses, guys. Getting my behind handed to me at work. Things are supposed to be slowing down this time of year and it's just not. Just went back to work after three days off and already exhausted again. We've been like this since before Christmas with very little help.

Thank God for the writing. I'd so crazy if it wasn't for that.

I really wish I could work on Heirs and the rest for a living. :( Seriously. I really don't want to stop writing this morning. I'm loving what we have so far.

where you read a comment on a website that you've frequented for years and see a comment, a warning even, that immediately makes you wonder if they're referring to you? Especially after a really lousy day? And you're at least a little guilty of the accusation, even if they may be talking about someone else and something much more offensive? 

Yeah, me, too. *slumps*

ETA: This is what's making me nervous (posted at Caped Wonder a couple of days ago by Jim Bowers):

High-resolution files or prints of CapedWonder™ imagery are only available to employees and board members of DC Comics, Warner Bros., the Christopher and Dana Reeve Foundation, and other major studios and organizations that are assigned with official and approved Christopher Reeve/Superman projects. Please do not post CapedWonder™ imagery or your manipulations of CapedWonder™ imagery on any websites, message boards, forums, blogs, or social networking sites such as Facebook, Twitter or similar without prior written permission. Thank you.

I was never aware that he didn't want any of it to ever be used for anything and I try to give credit where I can. Most of what I have as manip bases isn't from CW, but it's enough to make me nervy. And I'm almost too scared to contact him at this point, especially since I wanted to see if he might actually approve of reeveverse . Not sure what to do now. :(

Up two hours early to be awake for work + coffee for only the last half-hour + brain asleep + writing to do + IT'S A BLOODY SUNDAY = FAIL.

And I haven't even been to work yet.

*headdesk*

I really want to post about the episode, which I loved, but wasn't quite what I was expecting. But my mood is just bizarro. I'll be at my parents' house for the next three days while Anissa's in South Carolina visiting a friend. No vacation for me; I'll be going to work while she's gone.

Part of me wants to write an apology here for the absolutely suck-ass friend I've been lately. I'm behind on replies, posts, reviews, birthdays, and everything else. I'm worried about my level of work on Heirs and whether it's any good, I'm not posting a lot of what's been happening with me lately because I don't want to be a drama queen or bring anyone down, and just.... blech. Sorry, L, I didn't mean to post a crabby post. I know you don't need the bad vibes. Really, guys, I am reading the posts lately; it's just that I can't think of anything useful to say.

Is this what happens when you're getting ready to turn 31? *makes face*

And, Charles, I didn't forget! Expect to see the fanmix next week.

I'm off. Love you guys bunches and bunches.