~There's A Place That I Know :: It's Not Pretty There and Few Have Ever Gone...~

I want to write up something beautiful and grand, but it hurts my heart so much that I just...

Nothing is adequate.

The level of loss to my heart is not something I can explain.

The words are ash.

Early Monday morning, around 3:30 in the morning, I lost my oldest. Vixen Sionnach was 11 and the very first pup that was ever mine. I can't have kids; there's not even the possibility. But this one...

I just can't explain how much she meant to me and my life as a whole.

She was a stray when she wandered into my life and she was my sweet, wonderful, fascinating daughter when she slipped away like the lady she was.

She'll always be with me, but I just need time to heal for the hole left behind.

[Error: unknown template qotd]Two back-to-back classics by Stephen King. Last week it was Bag of Bones and now I'm in the midst of re-reading Duma Key for the fifth time. :D

Okay, so we're getting things back in order and projects back on the burner. ATU goes back into production starting Monday, there's been progress on LaOH and it should roll out soon, there's a challenge coming up that we're planning to write for, and a birthday fic on the way for one of our favorite people.

How's that for fighting my way back? ;)

By the by, LJ, what the FUCK is up with the random way you keep switching formatting and such? Really? REALLY? *glares the Lane Death Glare*

Go to Anissa's post and read all about it.  Not included: Lois' work-related fuckery.  It's the biggest retail holiday of the year coming up!  Guess which fucktard manager is trying to cut hours and not hire any new seasonal employees!  Guess which crew is ready to kill him, each other, and the customers!  (Why yes, this WAS posted by Anissa.  Two f-bombs in three sentences was your hint.)

*This is Lois dropping in about eight hours after the fact. Yeah, it's been pretty bad over here the last few weeks. I hate that we're blowing deadlines left and right, but the stress has been just too damn much lately. Between the both of us being sick and Anissa's dad being worse and worse off and things at my job being worse than insane, nothing has really gotten done on the current stories. It's just been enough to beat the hell out of some of our muses.

This isn't to say that we don't plan to be back to the grind shortly, but it may take a little longer. There's no plan to drop everything, and I have gotten a couple of questions about that from some fandom quarters, but it may be a little closer to Christmas before everything is back in complete order. I hate it, but it honestly can't be helped at the moment.

Yes, it's that bad over here right now. I hadn't planned to share, but being this disorganized isn't like me and I didn't want to keep my readers and friends and family hanging. So nope, I'm not going anywhere. The writing will be back, but maybe a little slower than I'd like. And yeah, rough times. We'll survive this. We always do. *winks at saavikam77* 

Despite the fact that you shorted me of sleep, this morning was turning out okay. The backfire? I do not approve and it needs to be redacted. Like, now. My muses are trying with all their power to distract me, but thoughts like these are NOT helping. The DOOM Cloud is not something I can do anything about, nor will that situation change in the future. I DO NOT NEED THIS RIGHT NOW. Neither do other people. JUST DROP IT. FR SRS. With things starting to look up again, this is just. Yeah. ENOUGH.

No love,
Me

I know that the radio silence has been making some people worried [I've had a couple of PMs], but I'm not going anywhere. There's just been a lot going on lately, I've been sick, we're in planning up to our elbows for both Across the Universe and Love and Other Headaches, not to mention setting up Blood Will Tell, as well. We have a LOT of projects coming up this Fall and Winter. Stay, the final part of the Tales of the Multi-verse, is also forthcoming.

There are also a few locked posts right now for videos and such that I'm running by my beta team for the upcoming projects. So yep, I'm here and not going anywhere. It's just that I have too many things going on at once and too many spoilers I'm trying to keep to myself to post all the time.

That said, I miss the chance to reply on everything lately. I promise to get caught up soon. But, replying or not, I'm still reading, so I'm keeping up with you all, even if it doesn't easily show.

*snugs her f-list tight* 

And then, in the middle of the night, when out in the middle of nowhere on a drive to relax us, the car died.

Five minutes later, a giant thunderstorm rolls up.

Can my life get any better?

Thank God, we have AAA. That said, no ride, so I'm not at work today.

Did I mention that I was off the last two days?

*headdesk*

Yep, tomorrow's going to be fun. At least there will be less crap when we pull in in a rental.

*whine*

There are days that being a responsible adult with a conscience sucks. Epically. Especially when you really just want to run away and hide and escape into your writing world for a while.

Hanging out with Lo would be the best thing in the whole wide world today.

*siiiiigh*

But it would be much cooler if I was. Florida is not a place you want to find yourself in right now. The weather is miserable, work is... *bites tongue* work, and I caught yet another version of the plague that's been winding its way through my job. Fun times.

Energy was been low all around of late and what little I have is being channeled into Across the Universe and a good chunk of one of our future projects, so we can have it all nice and shiny before we write the bulk of it. I've also been making videos, but not ones that the general public can see yet. More stuff that you'll see in the coming months. Yep, I'm stockpiling. :D

I also need to take a moment to thank saavikam77  for putting up with me and my weirdo hours and requests and all the time I'm eating up on her schedule working on this side-project. You're a saint to put up with me and to have agreed to work on this stuff in the first place. I wouldn't know half the stuff I needed to know and wouldn't have the appreciation for that entire family without you. I don't tell you enough, but I owe you so much for this experience. I know it's been tough and I'm a pain in the ass a lot, but I couldn't have asked for more. 

Please remember that when you want to beat me, huh? *hopeful grin*

Not posting anything EVERYONE can see, but working on a project for later this year. :D

And yes, working on the next chapter of ATU. Annnd working on PB stuff.

And RL. Don't forget RL.

Busy, busy girls over here! ;)